The Death of a Loved One

I can’t tell you how sorry I am that I haven’t posted or gone to any of your blogs for almost a month. My cat George, my black and white cat you’ve seen so many times before had a rare cancer, and had to be put to rest. I can’t explain the pain I’m going through, apart of me died with him, and life just seemed dull for a while. He lived to be 12 years old and the vet was shocked as to what he found when they did an MRI on him. He said, he should have lived another 10 years. What killed me the most, was that it was unexpected. We took him to a specialist thinking what he had on his leg was a cyst and just needed to be scraped out. After being there the entire day they showed us what he had… it was one of the worst days of my life.

He was my baby boy, he made me smile when no one else could. I miss him jumping next to me when we watched TV and I miss him talking to me when he wanted something or just to be heard. He was one amazing cat, I won’t ever be able to find another like him. He’s finally home with us now. We had him cremated and he returned to me yesterday. They included a mold of his paw, which I wasn’t expecting, and I was finally able to think about posting a blog. I know it’s been a long time, and for that I do apologize.

I will be posting more soon. I’ll be going through all of your recent blogs, but probably won’t go through them all. I hope you all don’t mind. I’m healing slowly and hope to pick up my camera again soon.

 

“Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, 

but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you…

I loved you so

’twas Heaven here with you.”

– Isla Paschal Richardson

George

Born February 14th 2001 – August 22nd 2013

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40 comments

  1. I’m very sorry to hear about your loss, Amanda. I am a lifelong animal lover, and I know the pain it causes when a beloved pet dies. It is one of the most excruciating things in the world. Please take care.–Mike

  2. Oh you beautiful girl, you have been through a very sad time. When I was growing up on the farm, animals came and animals went, that was the cycle of life. I could never understand anyone getting sentimental over a pet, then we got Tiddles, our Burmese gorgeous boy. We though we were going to have to put him down a couple of years ago and I couldn’t believe how sad I was, I bawled my eyes out at the vets. Turns out we didn’t have to, but reading this, I can feel your pain and the tears start in my eyes as I look at my boy and think one day I will have to feel the same. So glad you feel like blogging again. Please do not feel that you have to go and look at all my posts, consider yourself up to date. You really haven’t missed much. Lots of love.

    1. Thank you so much Leanne! You are always so sweet and I really appreciate it. My house is so quiet without him it’s still so weird for me, but yes I’m hoping that blogging with do me some good. I’ve missed you so my friend 🙂 I love hearing about Tiddles, those are my favorite dogs and I’m sure he will be with you guys for many many more years 🙂

  3. Oh I’m so sorry to hear this. You take all the time you need to grieve, we will all be here for you when you return. Our cat died of cancer too and it was hard on the entire family. I feel your pain…sending positive thoughts your way.

  4. Amanda, you have lost a member of your family, and of course you are grieving. I was thinking of you recently; I noticed that I had not seen anything from you. I am so sorry that this sad event is the reason.

    1. Hi Amanda, I can feel your pain, I’m not sure how I’d cope if I lost one of my girls, they’ve got me through so many hard times and never ask for much in return. You have some lovely photos of your little one and how special to have a cast of the paw. Sending lots of love Sam x

      1. Thank you so much Sam! He was so snuggle baby and supporter also. He would grace me with his presence when he knew I was sad. Amazing how much we rely on them. I didn’t realize it until after he was gone. Thank you for the message 🙂

    2. He was definitely a member of the family, it’s been hard Mona, but I’m so thankful to have the memories and to have spent as much time with him as I was able. Thank you so much for taking time to message me 🙂 your sweet words are a comfort

  5. I follow a photographer and you commented on her blueberries and decided to click on your link and check out your blog. So sorry for your loss. There is nothing like losing a furry member of a family. I had a Black and White short hair cat named George that looked like Sylvester. He had multiple medical problems. I started my blog in his name and originally about him. He was doing great with his meds and one night 4 years ago, he collapsed in pain and into a coma at our vet where we had him injected to end his life as he had no life left. Out last cat and I grieved and was so depressed for weeks. He was 18 years old and had liver cancer and was internally bleeding and we had no clue as he showed no sign of yet something else wrong other than thyroid and cataracts. Went to PetsMart 4 weeks later to open adoption and debated and got Oscar, 6 years old and the new love of our life. The best thing we ever did. Not the same as our George but a wonderful cat. Thoughts are with you.

    1. I can’t tell you how amazing it is that you messages me. Thank you so much for aking time to talk about you’re George. What a great name right? I almost named George Sylvester haha. Yes my other cat Stevie is very confused, my husband and I talked about getting him someone to play with, but probably not for a while. I’m so glad it helped you so much! That’s so amazing to hear. You’re baby George was so lucky to have you 🙂 i’ll have to go check out your site soon so I can see him. Thanks again 🙂

  6. Hi Amanda! So sorry to hear of your loss. Losing such a close friend (family) is so hard, i’m still feeling it after losing Bruce nearly 2 years ago. My heart and prayers are with you! I’ve missed you on here and so pleased you’re back. Take care, your loving brother, Steve. 🙂

    1. I thought of you while I was posting that blog! I was thinking of your baby boy as well and how you’d probably understand. My prayers went out to you as we’ll 🙂 I want to thank you for taking time to message me, it means so much. Yes, I’ve missed you all very much on here and am happy to be back 🙂

  7. I lost my beloved Tuxedo cat Friday on July 21 of this year…. he was 18 1/2 and we were partners for 18 of those years. I thought it would be a long long time before I could consider adopting another cat. But one month later, Freddie came into my life. There will never be another Friday and he will always be a part of me, but Freddie (also a Tuxedo) is gradually filling up the empty spot in my heart. I have had to say goodbye to several cats over the years and it never gets easier, in fact it gets harder. But you will always have the memories of the good times you had with your beautiful cat.

    1. I can’t tell you how much this message means to me. To read Bout your baby Friday was so sweet and sad, there’s always that one special pet, that you’ll never forget. Thank you so much for taking time to message me 🙂 so happy to to hear you have a new buddy, someday I’d like to do the same

  8. George was a very beautiful cat Amanda. From your post it is clear how much you loved him! Really sorry for your loss and although you will always miss him I hope that the pain you feel will wash away soon. Eventually you will be able to look back on the good times together with a smile instead of tears.

  9. Wanna Be, I’m so, so, SO sorry to read this about sweet George. He was a beautiful cat, and I enjoyed seeing his fluffy face and green eyes on your blog. I’m sending a big hug your way!

  10. For wannabephotographer87 in her sorrow…

    Black and white, e’er fitting,
    Your adornment, so right,
    For you gilded her morn,
    And you brightened her night.
    Yea, for this, she recalls,
    “O, dear George, what a site!”
    She will miss you, kind sir,
    With all muster and might.

    Came to mind just now. Hope it honors and soothes, even if only a little. –Angelsportion

  11. So sorry to hear that, Amanda. 😦 Piggletino and his scout gives you a hug. As you keep him in your heart, don’t forget to keep smiling and stay strong; George will want you to be a happy photographer.

  12. this is so sad and sorry to hear this Amanda…but sometimes everyone and everything has their course of life….a big hug for you my dear..and its sad but true that life and death are part of this world…and sad is that we are left alone when we loose our dear ones but we still have those beautiful memories with us to live with…May God give you enough strenght to live this phase through my dear!

    1. Thank you so much honey. It’s been tough, everyday I still have tearful moments and I miss him so completely. But to have you say these sweet words is really nice 🙂 thank you for this message, I really appreciate it.

  13. I never know what to say in times like this, but for what it is worth you have my sympathies.

    We lost one of our cats a few years ago in an unexpected way, and it was truly horrid. You have my sympathies, but at the very least you had those 12 years. That is something to be positive about.

    1. Thank you so much my friend 🙂 it has been an extremely hard time, but I really appreciate that you commented me at all 🙂 I know it’s hard to know what to say, but just seeing a comment is really sweet. Thanks again 🙂

  14. I, too, have been away from blogging for too long and was so saddened to read your post today. My heart goes out to you. I understand how painful losing a precious pet can be as they seem more like family members than the word pet might imply. The pain we feel in loss is equal to the love we feel. Know that the greater your pain the greater is your capacity for love. I’m sure that George felt that love every day he shared with you.

    1. Thank you so much for these sweet words my friend 🙂 It has been a slow healing process, just when I think I’m feeling better a sadness washes over me all over again. I just miss him so completely. But he lived a very happy life and was extremely spoiled so that makes me happier 🙂 Thank you again for taking time to send me this message. I really appreciate it

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